(CoLA timeline)
We were going to go to the mountains, fucking mountains! Everyone in the family was preparing to go, we had food and backpacks even first aid kits. The zombies going on a field trip to recover some sort of artifact, I was pumped as other than some large hills in Syn I had never been to some mountains before. I made sure everything was fine with Xan, cut him open put food in his stomach then seal him shut. Even set up loads of wards of defence to protect him while I was gone, I was going to be away for a long time he needed protection. My love... Wake up soon.
First we gathered at the warehouse to make sure everyone was here, Cara was running late but that gave us plenty of time to sort ourselves out. Passing around packs, kits and various other things. Once Cara showed we were on our way through the lands outside of LA, that included the Pack lands we had to traverse through. At the tunnels we re-grouped and went in, dark, dank and gloomy in there my sort of place, no sooner had we reached the inner chamber and began to search one of my wards went off.
I ran out of those tunnels fast as I could to where I keep Xan's sleeping form, the ward being triggered was a false alarm. I relaxed. Yet by the time I had gotten back to his side it was too late to go back to the tunnels, I cursed my bad luck and felt like I abandoned them. Xan is family too he's part of the AR, and he's my husband. Never before has there been a tug like this in my life, family above all others family first.
What do you do when one member of that family is not only a part of yourself, but also your lover and husband?
Lulz of the day:
[2012/02/07 13:50] Blueray Darkes: Everytime its loads of retarded questions, and then pointing out this person and that person and do I know of them. I DON'T CARE! I don't pay attention to celebraties, I don't care if they're from England, I don't care if they decided it was a good idea to dress up in a giant bunny suit with clogs on and went dancing the fucking hula on top of the world's largest satilite
Saturday 28 January 2012
Wednesday 4 January 2012
Strange dreams
(CoLA timeline)
When I'm not watching over Xan or hunting or even working for the AR, I tend to curl up beside my husband and sleep. My dreams are strange to me as I'm in another place, another time altogether that makes me pang for the ones I hold dear.
I'm an angel... My wings are mutilated my feelings are that I've done this myself, they keep growing back and I keep breaking them. I wasn't always an angel I was once a demon, this dream is familar to me somehow. I don't know why or how but I've been dreaming this a lot, and it just progresses along each time the dream comes to me. The first time this happened I saw Drake, then Savannah and Magpie, though everytime he shows up I get this coil of hatred, betrayal and anger towards him. Ah... The angel thing is his doing, how cruel to trap such a proud being in a body like that. Skyler won't talk to me anymore because I stink, I kill humans to
I see everything that happens, how it happens, why it happened. All I can do is watch as this isn't really me, this isn't even real its not really happened. Fuck I miss them. Days of being sick because of the change, days of wanting revenge for the hurtful condition. Time moves on I can see me standing with Savannah, I still want to grope her but we talked instead of old days. Seems anyone I meet I'm always talking about the old days...
More old faces they're now Kytara and Fraz, the pangs again even as we talked. Old days always the old days, they were wanting to rejoin the House and I still refuse. I wonder why I'm so adament on this refusal, I miss my family I miss my friends though I tortured my friends. Hehehe. Sigh...
Now I see Skyler, Asher, Dracon, Jules, Monk. People I spent time with as a family, Skyler wants back in and Asher is already there. After watching my brothers fight like toddlers I go to see Dracon, my bodyguard, my fighter, one of my own confidants. Where are the others? I didn't find Savannah or Jaco again, I saw Felice briefly before I attacked and ate some neko fingers. I don't like this dream anymore it causes me pain, I really should stop opening that door but...
I woke up and fell off the bed my face was wet with tears, I'm dead I shouldn't be able to cry anymore. I'm not just a demon anymore I'm a Risen, not the first hybrid but the first demon one. Demon zombie there's a first, I know I've been dreaming about something that's why I was crying. I sat on the floor for some time as Xan sleeps above me on the bed, eventually I drag myself up to look at him and smile. I gave up a lot to start here and gained a lot too, the laws of the Archaics are the same ones that I used to follow back in days past. Family before all others. I know I failed that law back then, don't ask me how I only just figured that out.
My heart aches though, I need to stop that. Its too human too emotional, and I don't have time to waste on that shit.
Lulz of the day:
[15:50] Fisher: they do live shoes here
[15:50] Fisher: (*shows
When I'm not watching over Xan or hunting or even working for the AR, I tend to curl up beside my husband and sleep. My dreams are strange to me as I'm in another place, another time altogether that makes me pang for the ones I hold dear.
I'm an angel... My wings are mutilated my feelings are that I've done this myself, they keep growing back and I keep breaking them. I wasn't always an angel I was once a demon, this dream is familar to me somehow. I don't know why or how but I've been dreaming this a lot, and it just progresses along each time the dream comes to me. The first time this happened I saw Drake, then Savannah and Magpie, though everytime he shows up I get this coil of hatred, betrayal and anger towards him. Ah... The angel thing is his doing, how cruel to trap such a proud being in a body like that. Skyler won't talk to me anymore because I stink, I kill humans to
I see everything that happens, how it happens, why it happened. All I can do is watch as this isn't really me, this isn't even real its not really happened. Fuck I miss them. Days of being sick because of the change, days of wanting revenge for the hurtful condition. Time moves on I can see me standing with Savannah, I still want to grope her but we talked instead of old days. Seems anyone I meet I'm always talking about the old days...
More old faces they're now Kytara and Fraz, the pangs again even as we talked. Old days always the old days, they were wanting to rejoin the House and I still refuse. I wonder why I'm so adament on this refusal, I miss my family I miss my friends though I tortured my friends. Hehehe. Sigh...
Now I see Skyler, Asher, Dracon, Jules, Monk. People I spent time with as a family, Skyler wants back in and Asher is already there. After watching my brothers fight like toddlers I go to see Dracon, my bodyguard, my fighter, one of my own confidants. Where are the others? I didn't find Savannah or Jaco again, I saw Felice briefly before I attacked and ate some neko fingers. I don't like this dream anymore it causes me pain, I really should stop opening that door but...
I woke up and fell off the bed my face was wet with tears, I'm dead I shouldn't be able to cry anymore. I'm not just a demon anymore I'm a Risen, not the first hybrid but the first demon one. Demon zombie there's a first, I know I've been dreaming about something that's why I was crying. I sat on the floor for some time as Xan sleeps above me on the bed, eventually I drag myself up to look at him and smile. I gave up a lot to start here and gained a lot too, the laws of the Archaics are the same ones that I used to follow back in days past. Family before all others. I know I failed that law back then, don't ask me how I only just figured that out.
My heart aches though, I need to stop that. Its too human too emotional, and I don't have time to waste on that shit.
Lulz of the day:
[15:50] Fisher: they do live shoes here
[15:50] Fisher: (*shows
Tuesday 3 January 2012
The summons
(Toxian Timeline)
Jules called me to that city, the city that I mostly avoid now. Not even my monthly visits are worthy of that place, yet my family and friends are those that I left behind. Since they can't leave that island like I can.
Jules called me.
And I went.
My last visit had pulled me there to see Kytara and Fraz, I was happy to see them I really was it had been three years. We caught up on a lot of stuff that, old times that we all still shared. Today I couldn't find Jules at all at least not for a good several hours, in the meantime I pre-occupied myself watching two of my brothers mouth off at eachother. Skyler and Asher I never thought that two egos in the same place would be back, Lee a demoness I had met with Kytara and Fraz had a hard time stopping the fighting.
Skyler and me had a small disagreement about the Shadows, how the old is gone its time to start with the new. He didn't love Pieter like I did like I had used to and yes he left with us but he wants to return, I stand by my decision and by knowing I can't abide by false ones on the throne like Skyler can. Course when the current holder of the throne showed up I left, I could feel my brother Dracon near by. Jules was with me by then we caught up with both Dracon and Monk, I would have liked to go check up some of my other friends but its a matter of catching them around.
However I got distracted by a neko boy that decided to get too close, I had him flattened on his back and two fingers removed off him in almost no time at all. What? I was hungry! I told Dracon I could come back if he called for me, that would be the only reason why I'd visit at all. Fuck it even that traitorous Magpie could call for me if he wanted, I would proberly punch him in the face for the effort. Yeah friends and family can call me, if I'm there I've got a reputation to keep up. Simply put I'm free, the old values are gone. I'm not sticking around to make new ones, where's the worth in that?
Lulz of the day:
[21:29] Oliviana Firelight offers her some brown sauce with her meal
[21:32] Blueray Darkes: YOU MONSTER
[21:32] Oliviana Firelight: HAHAHAHA
[21:32] Oliviana Firelight dies laughing
Jules called me to that city, the city that I mostly avoid now. Not even my monthly visits are worthy of that place, yet my family and friends are those that I left behind. Since they can't leave that island like I can.
Jules called me.
And I went.
My last visit had pulled me there to see Kytara and Fraz, I was happy to see them I really was it had been three years. We caught up on a lot of stuff that, old times that we all still shared. Today I couldn't find Jules at all at least not for a good several hours, in the meantime I pre-occupied myself watching two of my brothers mouth off at eachother. Skyler and Asher I never thought that two egos in the same place would be back, Lee a demoness I had met with Kytara and Fraz had a hard time stopping the fighting.
Skyler and me had a small disagreement about the Shadows, how the old is gone its time to start with the new. He didn't love Pieter like I did like I had used to and yes he left with us but he wants to return, I stand by my decision and by knowing I can't abide by false ones on the throne like Skyler can. Course when the current holder of the throne showed up I left, I could feel my brother Dracon near by. Jules was with me by then we caught up with both Dracon and Monk, I would have liked to go check up some of my other friends but its a matter of catching them around.
However I got distracted by a neko boy that decided to get too close, I had him flattened on his back and two fingers removed off him in almost no time at all. What? I was hungry! I told Dracon I could come back if he called for me, that would be the only reason why I'd visit at all. Fuck it even that traitorous Magpie could call for me if he wanted, I would proberly punch him in the face for the effort. Yeah friends and family can call me, if I'm there I've got a reputation to keep up. Simply put I'm free, the old values are gone. I'm not sticking around to make new ones, where's the worth in that?
Lulz of the day:
[21:29] Oliviana Firelight offers her some brown sauce with her meal
[21:32] Blueray Darkes: YOU MONSTER
[21:32] Oliviana Firelight: HAHAHAHA
[21:32] Oliviana Firelight dies laughing
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